exposing myself.

i have a problem with my weight. i think every girl does. i've never been, say, morbidly obese, but i've definitely always been the bigger/biggest of my friends. i never understood morbid obesity, to be honest. i've always said that there has to be a tick in your head once you hit a certain weight, perhaps three hundred pounds. my tick was two hundred (barring child-bearing, since i've always been in the "upper" hundreds). well, ladies and gentlemen, the tick was finally set off last year. and, to my surprise, i actually didn't really do anything about it. 

until i got inspired by jennifer hudson. well, sort of. i had a doctor tell me last year that i should try weight watchers, but we didn't have the money. then, my friend who i've been working out with says she suggests it to all her clients (she's a personal trainer by profession). then i saw jennifer hudson at the grammys.

from rocco's pop revolution

and then my sisters started doing it. so i was finally suckered into it. i joined weight watchers.

i weighed myself last friday and almost cried because it was quite a bit worse than i had previously imagined. i won't share my numbers with you, but i will say that the consolation was that i didn't outweigh the sarge (which isn't saying much because he recently clocked in at 240). but i wasn't terribly far away either. (can't believe i'm admitting this to the world.)

BUT. the great news is this.

i lost 18.8 pounds! 

okay, it's probably mostly water weight. but i don't care. you can't rain on my parade today. that number is awesome. i don't expect to ever have a week like this again, but a pound or two per week in addition to that number still rocks my world.

and i ate what i wanted. literally. we went out last week... i had fettuccine alfredo. and i had a (chicken) burger and fries AND went wine and cheese tasting yesterday. but i'm obsessed with my points. i try to make sure i clock everything, even if not accurately (like if i don't know the nutrition info of a bag of kettle corn, for example haha). also, since fruit and veggies are free with points +, i loaded up on grapes and pineapple and pears to be sure that i was not only hungry, but satisfied my snacking ways.

the other thing is working out.. i really only have done it twice a week so far, but i'm trying to work in a third. i also walk the "long way" to get my mail and dance around the house more haha. my other small victory is that today, on my OWN, i decided to go to the gym (any one that knows me knows that's no small feat). and i went i kicked my OWN butt on the bike and treadmill, and even did weights. i was in there over an hour. who is this person?

y'all.

seriously.

how awesome does that make my weekend? the only thing that sucks is that now i have less points per day! haha... oh well. obviously i don't expect to have a week like that ever again.

SO. if you have ever considered weight watchers, do it. i bit the ($54) bullet and got my first 3 months. and i'll probably stay on it until i reach my goal weight (still about 60 pounds away). there is no gimmick. just a celebration! pretty soon i will go from this:

 to this. yes i willlllll.

won't you join me?