Overload

Does anyone else have sensory overload in this age of technology?

Most recently I stumbled upon the Black Women's Empowerment movement and some confusing blogs about supporting (or not supporting) modern feminism or civil rights (black) activism. I had to read several (long) blog entries to even figure out what one of ladies even believed -- it was so complex that she couldn't or wouldn't summarize her beliefs into an "about me" section. At least not concisely. And, in her defense, being a black girl is HARD. I mean seriously, at least for me. We struggle with being too white or to black (ghetto), any number of stereo types, very real issues of gender and race inequality, and a myriad of relationship issues between both sexes. 

(This isn't the point but come with me on this journey, won't you? :)

My goodness. I read these blogs because what they were saying interested me... and these women are passionate about their cause and in some ways play into shame for those who aren't familiar with topics or people that they hold near and dear. 

And the whole time I'm reading, I'm thinking, "I should know this. I agree with her. Why haven't I noticed these popular culture issues? Why don't I know this name? Why aren't I familiar with this issue?" 

Um, because I don't have to be an expert on everything. 

You're passionate, I get that. I suppose we're all passionate about something. BUT the internet has created a place where EVERYONE has a forum. My dad has said that there have always been radical people, but the problem with the Web is that you can't always tell when someone is just a obsessed fanatic or a balanced informant. I have that problem. 

There are many worthy causes out there, and I realize those who are most passionate wish that everyone could be well informed and move to action. And crazy me feels the need to soak up all this information. Because it is useful... sort of... for some people. But, does my general ignorance of the Black Women's Empowerment Movement make me not truly a believer in the empowerment of black women? No. I guess not. I just can't write a discourse on it. And I suppose that's okay. 

Which leads me to another point. I think I am a jack of many trades (and disciplines) but really a master at none. Do any of you feel that way? Do you think that is legitimate, or do you think it's a side effect of the "personal PR" nature of social media? Does one need to master something in life? 

I don't think so. 

I think I can live simply, without doing anything fascinating. I don't want to be a master at anything unless the Lord wills it so. I just want to love my soldier, and to act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with my God.

I need to back off the media. Especially in the middle of the night. Seriously.